smile more than people in other states. At least 12% more than Minnesotans or Coloradans. 42% more than New Yorkers. 55% more than Washingtonians (especially those from multiple generations.) The further south you go in California, the more people smile. We're talking around 2 - 3% in increased smiling.
N E Wayz.
I'm having a baby. Someday. My mom says that when I was born, she cried because she'd never be able to be a Freshman in college ever again. I'm looking forward to these irrational outpourings of emotion. I kind of live for them.
Yesterday I cried because my mom's dog was chewing out her own stitches from the spading and pushing into my abdomen with her paws. I couldn't make her stop or control the biting and she was hurting me and possibly my future child. I went into my room and sobbed and my mom knocked at the door and said, "I'm so sorry honey. Are you okay? Are you okay?" And I was okay, but I wasn't at the same time. I pulled myself together and let her into the room.
Also, my boss was mean to me again, which sent me sobbing while cooking dinner. I thought, "Does she forget I'm pregnant?" My coworkers response to that is that no one cares if your pregnant ... they'll be mean to you anyways, and I thought, REALLY? Shook my head. In California of all places. The shame of it.
I worry that my stress is producing a stressed out baby and then I think, well, at least he/she won't be boring. Is that wrong? I'm 74% sure that this feeling is wrong, but if I smile about it, won't that bring the wrongness down to 72%? What about if I'm stressed but smiling in Los Angeles? San Diego?
And then I think, what's worse, being stressed or worrying about it? Would I rather have an angry child or a worried child or a stressed out child or a depressed child? Do other mothers think this way?
People have been asking if I want a boy or a girl and I say, I want an emotional baby. And they say, "Ooooooh." And I say, "You know, just as long as they talk about their feelings all the time because I like to talk about my feelings."
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does this mean i can read your baby books about feelings? and do dances with her about her feelings? and make up songs? with stuffed animals? and video tape them? hmmm. i think the three of us should have lots of playdates.
forget mean people. feel every moment of this amazing experience. you are magic.
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